Good night!!

I believe there is a magic in silence and you are chaos. Or is it the other way round? I wonder while we talk about random things over coffee and watch television. While I sit there, staring at you, still contemplating how beautiful you look and how tasty this coffee is, I realize that in the process of searching for you, I have found myself. All that remains to be explored now is a sense of belonging. So before you tell me how fun your date was and how badly you want to get some sleep, this time, stop for a moment - a moment that will last eternity, before you say good night.

This Life..

I think the problem with the most people is that they spend their entire lives looking for answers from other people instead of finding it themselves. This life is a beautiful chance and carries a million possibilities for us.

So instead of doing anything out of random because someone told you something, try to think for yourself. When you make a decision, stick to it until you know that you have completely failed and remember that sometimes it's okay to fail miserably in order to grow.

Plan things with your family & friends, date someone you like and get to know them better everyday, put a smile on someone's face, do a little good for yourself and others.

Today !!

So I thought of you today.. Of the places we went to and the movies we watched. I thought of dreams that I once saw with you. Then I thought of me.. of the man I've become..of the boy I once was.. of the dreams which were shattered and the nightmares I once lived.

At one time, everything was quiet. Through that quietness, I still remembered the happiness that always remained, and my journey from that boy to this man. And while I didn't have a hand to hold on during this journey, I still remembered the touch of your fingers.

So today, I stood there and thought, and realized how wonderful this life is sometimes. I stood there and smiled and I felt the whole world was once again smiling with me !!

About A Girl

She's sitting so close to me.

I can almost feel it, the warmth of her skin.

Behave! But I cannot resist it.

Oh, how badly I wanna touch her.

I look at her cheeks, her breasts and her lips,

Oh, how badly I wanna kiss her.

But then I look into her eyes,

She doesn't deserve to go through the pain

Do I grab her & take her away from the world?

I have seen her scars and she's seen mine.

I say something funny and she smiles.

I steal a glimpse and our eyes lock.

My heart starts racing, can she hear it?

Thoughts soar through my mind.

If she only knew how I felt about her;

She would be mine !!

My Parents !!

We don't pay attention to some of the things we pick from our parents while growing up and I just realized today how much I have learned from them. Being a cop, my dad portrayed the image of that Bollywood actor who goes on saying 'Mard ko kabhi dard nahi hota' but in his own ways my dad taught me about integrity, the value of family/ friends and how important it was to earn enough money to support me and my family. My mom taught me to respect women and that it was okay to feel deeply or to care for your closed ones. I think in a conquest to become adults, we start hiding in our own shell. If we allow ourselves to feel what we are feeling and say what we want to say, we'd end up feeling much better and happier which is something this world could definitely use a little more of.

The Right Kind of People !!

They say you are the average of five people you spend the most time with. I guess I don't really agree with the statement. I think instead of finding such people you should aim to be one - the one people want to hang around with !!

Be there for people when they need you. Appreciate them for the good things they do and help them make a better person. Give your opinion on some of the things they do wrong without criticizing or judging them. Don't force to make a decision that's in your favor. Watch over them without invading their personal space and stand by them when they need you. Don't talk to them only when you need a company. Don't treat them as an option if you know that they give you priority.

You do this and you will have the right kind of people around you ;)

The right fit !!

Suppose you visited an upscale departmental store to browse through their shoe department. You saw a pair of shoes you fell in love with but your size wasn't available and the next smallest size was all they had.

Would you squeeze into too-small pair and buy it anyway? Would having a pair of shoes you loved be worth all the discomfort? Probably not.

Sometimes, we may try to adjust with someone who is attractive and provides a great company but is not a right fit.

Wait for the right fit..

You have never left me !!

I was restless throughout the night. I realised that I was thinking of you and I began to wonder how long you'd been on my mind. Then it occurred to me, since the first time we met, you have never left me.

Drawn to you !!

I stood there and watched the moths circling around the light source from a lamp shade at the metro station. I watched and wondered why a moth would be attracted to a light source that eventually would lead to its demise. What is the underlying motivation for this sort of behavior? Is it lust or greed? Is it thrill of the chase? Or willingness to sacrifice itself to the light source out of love? I guess we would never know. Well, all I want to say is I am drawn to you the way a moth is to a flame.

A bit of !!

There are days when I feel disappointed, times when I doubt myself and moments when I long for a carefree youth. It's time like these when I ask myself if I am walking on the path my heart desires. And every time the answer is yes, I am happy.

I think that's how life is, there are millions of people out there doing things they probably don't want to. And somehow I am trying to make something out of my life by doing things I really want to. It's all part of a bigger picture.

And at the end of the day, that's all you need. A bit of love, a bit of hope and a belief that things may not be on track right now, but soon it will be !!

Two Corpses

I used to be the first person you shared things with,
and you used to fill my silences with your laugh.
Now you act cold whenever you find me around;
And I think of ways to avoid you, if possible at all.
We are two corpses acting as if nothing's wrong,
and people think we're still going around !!

Something about her !!

There was something about her. Something wild, and yet putting me at ease at the same moment. She would pretend to look at the tv while I cooked meal for her. She would tease me occasionally, sometimes to an extent that we would end up fighting. And then she would question whether I really cared. She was the darkness and I would pretend to be her moon. I could never tell her how much I loved her but I had my own ways​ of showing it.